Language

I didn't realize how amazing that is until yesterday when I had a dinner with my host family.

I had a good time to eat Mexican food, and I would say that was the best ever, but Linda, my host family, said that she called it Taxes-Mexican because it is more like Taxesian flavor. I think that is what happen to Chinese take-out restaurant here in America that they became American-Chinese food in order to have more business with American; otherwise, in a place like Norman that there are not so many Asian people, how are they going to survive. Yet, somehow the change decrease the level of texture in the Chinese food because all they have is just soy sause and suger, and they will call it: This is Chinese Food, but I would usually say that until you eat the real Chinese, you will see if you are a true Chinese-food lover.

Anyway, that is far from the topic I would like to say. After dinner, we started to chat a bit from topic to topic. Then, we were back to the old topic as an international student: language. We started to say that there are many language in China, and Taiwanese has at least 3 languages that are still alive: Mandarin, Taiwanese, and Haka. However, for Taiwanese and Haka, there are no writing system for the sound we say. Then, the other Chinese girl said there are at least 150 different languages in China, but Mandarin is the official language. In nowadays, government starts to realize how important to have variety of languages around, so we start putting mother tongue language to our education. Here, Linda and Tollie said that it happens in Oklahoma too that they are going to save all the native Indian tribes language since some research said that some Indian language is gone from the earth forever. This can be said the Whites occupied the red land, and nowadays the business, education, and society are solely based on English. It makes no way to use their native language anymore.

Okay, here is the amazing part that I found out about language and human. There are many languages in the world that people are speaking them daily. In every language, they have a different tone, word, and pronuciation to call an object. For example, apple is the word in English, 蘋果 is the word in Chinese, 捧購 is the sound in Taiwanese. Is it fun to see how human ctreated a system for their own to name an object? There are more and more in rest of the world that they are using different word and sound to say apple. Put the cultural influence aside and look at each language, now you will have the same astonishment as I am when you see the languages. Each isolated human group around the world, in order to communicate, they developed their own language that they can talk in common. Looking at them, each language is so different in the way they speak, writing, and the grammar. How can people do it to create a language so different from others and have nothing in common? Especially when you look at the language in China, some minorities, they are just a monutain away from each other, but they can develop a language that is different in intonation and accent and use the same creatation to name all the objects and other daily bases word and they are not similar to each other. Now, I was so proud of human that they can achivev this far. Is it amazing?

So, this entry is getting tedious and no where to go anymore, and I will just call it a day here then!

Jason Mraz- I'm Yours

如果有看我舊網誌時期的文章
應該對這個名字不陌生
他就是我那時候極度瘋狂的一位美國歌手
但我必須老實的說
在前一陣子我其實都沒有在聽他的音樂
因為長時間的轟炸下
我的聽覺似乎疲憊了



會在開始聽他的音樂是
其實你們應該也有看到在旁邊的欄位裡
音樂的那個部分已經換成另一個軟體
這個新的東西比之前的好
因為我可以直接把我喜歡的歌放在一起
然後大家都可以點來聽
所以為了這個
我開始找起之前聽過的歌而且在這網站上找的到的
而後就想起Jason Mraz
打入搜尋 挑出我喜歡的歌
在閱覽的同時發現了他的新的歌
其實也不算新
應該就是在我之前一陣子沒注意他的時候
他發行的一張單曲: I'm Yours
吸引我的是簡單的和弦和伴奏
加上很有魅力的他的聲音
我又再次的迷上他的音樂和聲音

先這樣好了
請大家先不要去點I'm Yours這首歌
先在旁邊的軟體點You and I Both
這個我猜是他現場live的版本
只有一個吉他和他的聲音
以下是他的歌詞:

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me?
while things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing.

Oh, but at often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others only read of
Others only dream of, of the love (聽他的only dream)
Of the love that I loved

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words;
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words.
More words than I had ever heard, and I feel so alive.

Oh,then you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore

And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of (這是最棒的部分 spoke of ~)
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
I'm finally deedeedeedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I am free
Oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
well, they work in both ways
But if I never ever hear it ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of (of, of)
And others just read of
and if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
I'm finally deedeedeedeedeede
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Out of words

很棒吧
純真, 直接, 但是又調皮的聲音
我覺得最棒的是他對他聲音的控制
聽他唱歌真的是一種很棒的享受
因為可以聽見他的誠懇 但是又帶點天真調皮的唱法
然後我覺得Jason最吸引人的是他的吟唱和節奏
那種即時的mumbling(咕噥)結合著節奏 在加上他的旋律
哇 那真的是太吸引人了
至少我被他吸引住了
其實如果可以去看他的video看他唱現場
你真的會愛上他喔!
(恩 我結尾會放上一個youtube的影片)



在來就是之前的單曲:I'm Yours
照他的說法
他並沒有想到這首歌會造成很大的迴響
所以 他決定要把這首歌放在即將出版的專輯裡
而且他會以這首歌以腳本去放上其他的歌曲

現在可以去點旁邊軟體的I'm Yours來聽
以下是歌詞:

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
i love peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!

一開始的吉他motive就已經先慢慢我抓進去一種夏威夷的感覺
然後變了和絃 就呈現出另一種感覺
第一句的歌詞用了兩個done
雖然不是很懂那是什麼意思
但是 有種很可愛的感覺 跟曲風很搭
之後進到附歌的部分
和絃開始轉 然後把單字拆開唱 加上他的聲音
一切變的很吸引人
同樣的東西到了結尾的部分
附歌依樣持續的進行
但是進來了對抗旋律(我不會翻 Counter-melody)
讓音樂有了不一樣的變化
經過小小的解釋 應該有更喜歡這首歌吧
其實歌詞也很可愛說
尤其是在鏡子前面看舌頭 然後吹霧氣畫笑臉
然後說我們沒有太多的時間
我們應該要相愛(翻成中文真詭異)

好啦 聽完歌後
現在來看看影片
這是他在德國的柏林的Live Show
然後他在幫自己錄影
可以從影片看出聽眾都會唱這首歌
然後到最後聽眾唱著副歌而Jason本人唱著Counter-melody
你看他唱歌的表情 非常享受著音樂
然後跟聽眾合為一體的感覺 很棒
當然 他唱個表情動作也都是很可愛的




那 希望經過我的介紹
大家會更喜歡他的歌喔!

雨 跳躍思考

奧克拉荷馬下雨了
多麼難得的事阿

你要多下一點呢
這樣這邊的草皮地才會跟康乃迪克一樣綠

停了三天沒練樂器
今天跑到學校去碰一下
哇 三天果真就是三天
扎扎實實的讓我又退步了一點

練完樂器後我告訴自己
我在放春假
所以 我要活的快樂一點
就跑去吃起士蛋糕和一杯咖啡
好不愉快

剛剛在無名到處亂晃
看到小喜的相簿寫著校友管樂團
曾幾何時
我是那麼的積極的參加在校生和校友團的音樂會
以前都還會把回美國的時間排在音樂會後
現在呢
她又變的如此的不重要
並不是我不喜歡
而是似乎還有更重要的事情要去做
去年缺席了一次 今年還又再缺席一次
明年如果順利去歐洲 那又是第三次
幹部變的都是不認識的人
明年我猜我應該會完全不認識
等到後年 那應該就都是現在在校生的天下
然後七字頭又不知道在忙什麼
我就算有心去吹
也會近鄉情怯吧

放假
腦筋霎時間有太多的空洞
開始想著有的沒有的
看ptt的一篇文章說
金牛座很肉慾
但是為什麼我從小的印象是天蠍座很肉慾
金牛只是美食和美麗的主義者
我猜是那本十二星座繪畫圖本
把天蠍座畫的非常的冷艷性感
加上旁邊的文字說明說
天蠍座的人 bla bla bla,,,
那魔羯座呢
我又是怎麼樣的人呢
固執 刻板 嚴肅 你在說笑吧...
我可是天真無邪的大男孩呢
固執 我的解釋是: 那是原則問題
刻板 我的解釋是: 很多原則在很多時候根本就沒有遵守
嚴肅 哈哈哈哈哈 我都打了五個哈了 還嚴肅嗎?
好啦 其實是幹麻沒事一直笑勒
而我每天走路騎腳踏車都在笑 我真的不嚴肅阿
連我的學生都不怕我呢
所以我覺得我不像魔羯坐在某方面
大家說 過了25歲上升星座會慢慢的表現出來
所以我的射手座本性會慢慢的顯現出來呢
我可是很期待的優

所以 愛 到底是什麼?
感情關係又是什麼?
好煩

ptt說
"我很忙 是我真的很忙 但沒有因此不愛你"
是真的嗎
我常常用自己的模式去假想他人
弄得我自己好累
我們會走的很久的

妒忌像一把刀
劃破現有的狀況
理智迷失了方向
在煙霧裡
埋葬

六呎之下
最近把他的第一季看完了
有很大的感觸
對於死亡
很多人在摯愛的過往後
對於自己的未來感到迷惑
劇情裡說
你應該要好好的活著
因為只剩下你可以留住過往者的回憶和畫面
如果連你也不在了
那一切都會成了過去
另外 又有一個問題
為什麼會有死亡?
劇裡回答說 因為要我們好好的過每一天
那每一天都充滿著意義
所以 當死亡到來的時候
就不會顯得可惜和倉促
而當我看到這樣的內容
那我想起那個生命中的最後十二堂課
他表明的說 把每一天都當作是最後一天
如此 生命就會活的有價值

這又突然和我之前去上的一個小提琴的大師班裡說的一樣
那是一個13歲的天才小提琴家
被Simon Fisher上課
小女孩拉著柴可夫斯基的小提琴協奏曲
當然 非常的精湛
但是很多地方顯的不夠 這很明顯的是年紀的問題
13歲對上經歷過許多挫折的柴可夫斯基
Simon這時就跟小女生說:
這個抖音 你要抖的像是沒有了明天
這個圓滑奏 你要拉的像是沒有明天
這個撥弦 你要撥的像是沒有了明天
就因為這樣 你才會更看重這小小的地方
就因為這樣 樂曲才更有生命力

所以 明天
我要好好的吹著我像使沒有明天的法國號
在去吃像是沒有明天的起士蛋糕
哈哈

那感情的事
我們可以處的像是沒有了明天一樣嗎?

我覺得我又回到那時在IAA感覺
其實我還蠻討厭的
那種不確定和不安全的未來

許景淳

昨天的深夜
我在youtube上面繞阿繞
想把睡覺的時間拖著越來越遠
突然看見許景淳的天頂的月娘阿
還有她的芬芳
又讓我想起媽媽去天堂的那段日子

在人生很多的小角落裡
看著來來往往的過客
有些人就會給你有一種有母親的愛的感覺
許景淳就是其中之一
就會很想窩在媽媽的懷裡
是幸福也好 是訴苦也好
那應該是最幸福的時候吧
不過 那種感覺錯過了
就在也回不來了

昨天聽著許景淳唱的歌
回憶和感覺充斥著幾坪大的房間
我看著電腦螢幕
流淚

我想 我很矛盾
在我不跟別人說明我的家庭的情況下
我不要別人給的施捨和憐憫
但我卻要求別人多給我一些在乎
就在別人不知道的情況
不小心的在我心中
劃下一刀又一刀的傷口
不知情的他人
就看著我行為異常

都已經25的我
卻還是非常的幼稚
我小時候看著大人想說他們都是非常的成熟
現在自己變成大人了
小時後的想法卻沒有跟著時間變成熟
我其實還是一個很任性的男生
任性於自己的想法 自己的感受

或許我在找一種方法解脫
對於以往的種種
我可以釋然的面對

ok
下面放上的是許景淳的天頂的月娘阿
大家都應該都有聽過吧





另外 另外要說的是
旁邊的音樂換了喔
一個是自然音樂
一個是美國pop
美國pop很明顯的是怕自己太過於低迷
我覺得旋律很朗朗上口
希望大家喜歡囉!

Solitude

The first time when I encountered this word, I was in the American Literature class @ IAA. I can't remember the teacher's name, and it's shameful I know because he helped me a lot. It was like an ordinary day as usual when I came in to the class, and then he said, "okay class, now, think about you are in your own solitude, when will you think about or do? and how this solitude helps you achieve anything you want?" So the class had 5 minutes to think about it and write it down. I am not sure when I put down, but it got me so interested in to the question itself. Because of the events, time, and location I was dealing with, the question gave me a power deep inside my body to actually go through all the possible feeling that I would have when I in my solitude. Indeed, these feelings that I would never face then or deal with them, and until the day the question was asked, I finally got to think about it.

Actually, whether or not the solitude is bringing me to happiness or sadness, it is not going to make me say anything since all the emotions come from the surrounding and the situation. Yes, it is the moment of solitude that gives me or us the power to really see how things are working. Once we are in the busy and complex world of working or studying or even something else, our minds are losing its direction. When we find the moment of we can really calm down and see through things, it is the moment that we are really enjoying as being ourselves. It is like a Buddhist meditation yet only in the mind part not the physical part. That is the peacefulness that all the human beings are seeking.

So, why should I bring up this word anyway in this particular moment? because I really feel like myself was playing by my emotion and people's reaction a lot these days. I was so careful about what other people think of me, and that made me feel really tiring to go on like this. What does this have to do with solitude anyway? Yes, I don't even know. I guess it will be good that I just throw out a word to show off my English!!! Ha, it is not the truth. The moment I am in now, I can't say I am in my solitude because my mind is so fucked up. It is fucked up, and now I feel lonely. Maybe it has something to do with the spring break because people are going out to have fun in a sunny and nice days, but I got stuck in my apartment watching movies and TV shows. Afterward, it is just how I fucked my relationship anyway. I guess I don't have a good friend here. Not even a one that we share the same interests and we can talk about something fun and on and on till next day morning. But, I have to admit that this is how I am that I fucked up my own life, so I deserve it.

This is the loneliness that I am suffered. I can't even make fun of it because I caused it. The truth is that every once in a while, I will come in to the same situation again until I have someone I can rely to. Do you think I should blame it to the horoscope that I am in because most part of it is from there! (I am just being irresponsible) Life is so wonderful if it has accompanies that can share and talk to; otherwise, everything seems nothing.

So, in the 2nd day of the spring break, I am gonna enjoy my own solitude that I have come to the end with.

Esa Tapani

所以 標題這個名字到底是誰呢
就是過去這一個星期忙碌的對象
他是芬蘭廣播交響樂團的法國號首席
也是一間德國大學的法國號教授
在來到我們學校之前
他已經去過了美國很多的學校 有名的不有名的
我們學校是他的最後一站
在短短的兩天半的停留
他開了兩個大師班 上了我們八個學生
跟樂團演出了莫札特法國號協奏曲
恩 超級忙的行程
但是 老天很給他面子
他來了那一天之後 天氣越來越溫暖
他就說在我回到寒冷的芬蘭之前
我要好好的享受這溫暖的陽光

從他的大師課裡面發現到
他是一個講究embouchure的老師
原因是那是他曾經有過的問題
而他有花了時間把他改好
像是buzzing, set up embouchure, attack
都是他能夠很深入的跟我們講解的範圍
我的一個學生上去吹大師班
就被他指出來說
"你吹樂器的時候 下巴會整個擠上來"
"雖然這樣會幫助你吹音 但是 這撐不了多久"
好的 其實我有一點嚇到就是我教了他快一年了
卻沒有發現
說發現其實也不對 因為我的確有覺得奇怪
但是我的教授上他的課沒有指正他
我有就覺得那大概是不是很嚴重的問題
不過其實想想
那個時候洪琪億老師上我的課的時候
或是六字頭學長教我的時候
都也有說過下巴不可以鼓起來 不可以擠上去
well, you see what's going on here~

我必須說實話
我研究所的老師我已經覺得很厲害
利害並不是他吹的真的很好
而時對於教學生 他的方法至少是有效的
沒想到來拜訪的Esa
雖然是不一樣的領域
不過也指出幾個我老師沒有真正去探索的範疇
我覺得我應該可以練出一番作為來吧
就他幫我上的個別課內容來說
Buzz的確是他的強項
他也說我的Buzzing不對
Thank god that finally someone came to tell me that!
我在給加拿大銅管的法國號上課的時候
我就跟他說我覺得我的Buzzing很奇怪
但他卻說每個人都有不一樣的方法
的確 在樂器的世界裡
如果已經很厲害的 沒有人會再說什麼
但是對於我高音域的問題
我覺得something must have to do with it
結果Esa跟我說
"你的buzzing 開口太小 所以 聲音很緊"
類似這樣的話
讓我覺得我的聲音一直都不一樣
今天終於知道結果了

好啦 現在就全在我自己的身上
應該是要花時間去改的吧!

那還說說Esa的音色吧
他呢
真的是歐洲來的音色
雖然很多人跟我說美國的音色比較暗
但我覺得 多多少少跟個人有關
不過一般來說
歐洲的音色普遍有一種鬆的感覺
並不是很扎實的包合著
有一種鬆軟的感覺
而美國的音色 就我目前來聽
有一種緊實 厚重的感覺
反而聽久會有一種疲憊的感覺
這只是我個人的看法
所以呢
Esa有著非常鬆而甜美的音色
柔和卻不慵懶
我還蠻喜歡這樣的音色說

程度

馬勒的音樂在旁邊 請點來聽聽囉!

其實這篇文章的內容
我很久之前就有想過要寫了
但是 礙於太多的因素
最後還是放棄
不過因為最近的一些事情
讓我有一股衝動想要來寫

程度 真的會影響很多事情
從最早的Idyllwild Arts
他們把自己標榜為替天才藝術家奠定基石的學校
不可否認的 很多去到那邊的學生
真的很優秀
不是從小苦練 就是真的是資質優異
當然 相對的 還是要有一些學生資質不如人
才可以付學費幫學校賺點錢
所以 當樂團裡有這些人的存在時
通常音樂會是看不到他們的
因為不想讓學校丟臉
所以 每次的樂團音樂會
都像是一場職業樂團一樣的音樂會

之後上了大學
第一次的樂團考試結果出來
我老師把我排在吹第二部
那次的音樂會 我吹的份量僅少於首席-史蒂夫 襯衫
可想而知我老師對我的能力有多相信
不過 我馬上回給他e-mail說:
你要不要重新考慮一下你的分部
因為我從來沒吹過這麼重的份量
我高中的指揮把我視成樂團拒絕往來戶
結果他回信說:
我相信你可以的
而且如果你吹不好 你就應該學
當然 當時的耳朵裡面塞了幾百斤的棉花
我也不知道自己到底在吹啥
慢慢的 我也變成指揮的拒絕往來戶
尤其到大四變的更嚴重

而今到了現在的研究所
應該是耳朵開了不少
聽見了很多的聲音
相對的
我有聽出了學校的程度真的和Hartt有很大的落差
(ok 終於到了我想要講的主題了...)
下星期一 我們要表演馬勒第一號
沒錯
之前我已經吹過了一次
但是 距離音樂會不到一個星期的今天的排練
讓我覺得這真的像是要開音樂會的樂團?
吹錯音的一堆 音不准的一堆 速度不統一的一堆
有些甚至是還不知道自己的部分在樂曲裡有多重要
我今天再想 這些問題以前似乎都沒有遇到 為什麼現在都出來了
結論很簡單: 大家的程度還不到三個禮拜練起來馬勒一
而記得之前Hartt的排練 在差也沒有今天聽到的差
那這個樂團到底出了什麼問題
這個學校又出了什麼問題
大家似乎都覺得自己已經很厲害之類的
但是 這樣的排練結果 是真的很厲害嗎?
第一樂章的開始很多樂器的都吹同一音 造成一種很有宇宙渾屯的感覺
但是短笛卻可以吹的偏低 然後還沒有矯正過來
而第一號裡面有很多像是大自然裡的鳥鳴聲
有音的人卻吹的畏畏縮縮 像是在放馬後砲一樣
有旋律的木管獨奏卻吹不出該有的自信
這不是馬勒的音樂吧...
今天我深深的懷念起伶妃姐姐和查爾斯哥哥吹一二部時的光景
那樣的oboe氣度 我好像很久都沒聽到了
還有還有 史蒂夫襯衫的一部法國號首席
那種自信無錯誤的吹奏
大概在也聽不到了

這樣簡單的比較
程度就出來了
當然 我也沒有好到哪去
只是深深的覺得
學校的學生並沒有笨到哪去
但是為什麼不能好好的吹音樂呢
馬勒耶
一輩子可以吹到幾次? 你說

在來就是管樂團的部分
上星期才去參加CBNDA的西南部大會
指揮和Hartt的葛人艾德比起來
他要求的真的比較少
而他也放心的讓我吹high horn
天哪 我從大一吹過三部後 就一直都吹四部呢
而或許他知道我們的程度在哪
所以要求的比較少
我發現
這輩子要在遇到像艾德那樣的指揮
大概會難上加難吧

所以 我要替學校樂團的音樂會宣傳嗎
不過我真的很怕下星期一的演出會很爛說
好好的馬勒
變成超破碎的樂段

Found

Via email, I just found my lost elder sister. It sounds funny, but it's true.

I don't know how to articulate this more clearly, but we have been disconnected for about 3 or 4 years. Last time I saw her was in her apartment with her husband 5 years ago, last time I talked to her was 4 years ago, and last time I sent her email was 2 years ago while I haven't heard from her for years. You will ask how a family can become like this for years. Yes, the answer is quite simple: we weren't like a family since I was 18. Then what really happened to cause this? Well, simply the death of my father and my study in America. In fact, there are lots of things that I don't even wanna touch because it brings up some painful memories that I don't even believe that happened.

Finally, I got an email from my sister again, and today, another one with her phone number. So, I made a phone call and talked to her. I was so happy to see her email arrived and hear her voice from the phone. It proves that I still have family back in Taiwan and they know me and share the same mempry in my childhood. Yet, the sad part is that I have to face that they are not still good wealth. I can just image the environment they live from what she told me must be shaddy. The one that I don't wish I would have. Although she kept telling me that she has a much better life than before, I still can't stop thinking that if she made a better decision, she will be much better now. However, this is what life is all about. She also told me her philosophy that how she handled the situation she faced. What can I say to all of this? I should say that I should be happy what I have now and enjoy the life I have because some day when someone takes all thses away, I will be crying out loud.

It was a nice talk with her after 5 years and see her still happy. Well, I believe that she is happy how she gets used to the life she has, but not happy how the world treats her. Yes, this is the right way to say it. By the way, I got to talk to her little 4 years old boy. Gosh, I suddently felt that I am not young anymore, and I cound't stand the childish talk because it hurts in some way. It's like they are so innocent that this is not what they deserve, but the fate is this is what you got to face it. So, by the end of the conversation I told, please give good education to your children because I believe this is the only few ways can change their lives forever.

So, I am looking forward to the time when I get back to Taiwan and visit them: my family!